Fly Free: January 2009

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

mi & my box of frosted mini wheats

ahhhhhhhh... back at school laying in Tabitha (my bed) nothing to do no one to play with. just me my music & my thoughts. seen allot of interesting things back at school Prairie View A&M is a trip. it's so typical pertaining to social situations. i can predict what's gonna happen before i even get into the infamous MSC. i refuse to convert into a close minded fool. ...just aint mi. "hay hay haaaaaaaaaaaaaay DON'T say you will"((MR. WEST))...i enjoy that song. some homemade cupcakes sound really good right now. i like them soooooo much better than store bought cupcakes ((aka yuck))excuse my rambling i need to talk to someone but i don't really like to talk on the phone so...i decided to talk to my keyboard. who never judges me or calls me a loser. "he's the only one that's ever allowed to hang out in my room, with the door closed we be alone.((B)) my favorite part of having a journal and or blog is re-reading what i wrote and or typed....it's like a time machine especially if i go back and read some of my old old stuff...awesome! anyway i'm diggin Ryan Leslie my song of the day was "how it was suppose to be" he's swell!!!

he's officially my crush for January!.......school school school what am i doing here. sometimes i don't even know what i'm doing with my life...hopefully i will have my whole life plan written out tomorrow, so until then...

Friday, January 16, 2009

i'ma WRITER but i'm still a GORILLA...ya understand!!!

i love music. i think it keeps me sane. not just the lyrics, the beats, bass, and the memories that certain songs bring back. some good some bad some great. yesterday one of my friends asked me where i was mentally....my reply "I'm just tryna take care of me right now. make sure i take care of school and myself." i don't really think i can go wrong as long as i stick to that plan. my simple plan. of course all around me are distractions, people in my ear constantly not one day goes by where somebody is throwing shots at me....regardless if i hear about it or not. i use to wonder why? i pretty much keep to myself. i hang with the same people all the time because quite frankly they're are the only people i like LOL. so shit all that extra shit doesn't really concern me. cant' change who i am. don't really want to. fuck em' that's the motto i live by. if i didn't then i would be foolish like everybody else. I'm sorry for those people who feel like they have to lie on others to make themselves feel better. like Paul Chaney said "HATERS ARE INSECURE PEOPLE" don't try steal his quote he said it first LOL!!! but that's life if i worried about everything people said about me i wouldnt have time to do anything eles HA!!! today's friday school starts tuesday... i think it's time to put my dancing shoes on!!!

Lady MacBeth.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I'd Do Em'

Sorry Michelle but it's true...and i'm not the only one that thinks like that. He's hot plus he's powerful...plus I know YOU KNOW your not going anywhere so let me fantasize. Besides my own father this is the coolest motherf**** i ever seen yo!!! Cool in the sense that he doesn't lets anybody see him sweat. He knows how to control that sh** and I LOVE IT!!! am i obsessed???? heck yea i'm obsessed and proud of it. " Tell em' i'm doing fine Obama for mankind we ready for damn change so yall let the man shine" -Jeezy

if one person is giving a whole country so much hope just by speaking to them it has to be something special...call me what you want but i respect someone who inspires people and gives them hope!!! after next week we will see what he is capable of. So give em' hell O.Bee!!!!

here's why i'd do em'!!!!

to be cont...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Nail Polish, Afternoon Naps, Doobies

JUST A FEW OF MY FAVORITE THINGS....give me my laptop and i'll show you what i can do. i have a problem. unfortunately i dunno what it is. it's 6:00am and i have yet to fall asleep. i've been home most of the day laying on the couch. sleeping on the couch. harassing my mother.my kinda of friday. i wonder why everyone wants to be diffrent these days? i guess that's the trend now stand out...when all people are really doing is trying to fit in. irronic aint it!!! i see it alot. i want a banana split from sonic with The Bob. i love The Bob such a fasinating creature he is. reminds me alot of myself. the majority of this week i've just been in the house. after sunday when i was HIGHLY intoxicated and made a complete dick of myself i decided i needed to cool it for a while. i wonder what i would look like in 10 years. that should be interesting. i have this weird feeling that alot of stuff is about to change in my life. i'm afraid of it. simply b.cuz i dunno what's coming my way. but that life. she's a whore sometimes. gotta love her tho. i definetly need to destroy those pictures from sunday. the horror. i wonder if any body besides jasmine kyle and zach read this...oh well like plies said we got that water!!!!

Peace

dick, gravy

Saturday, January 3, 2009

couldn't think of a title just thought i'd let u know

always been under estimated. but i think i was the main one under estimating myself. i think i've always been afraid of the power i had afraid that i wouldn't know how to control it when i learned how to use it. i still think i'm afraid. don't know why tho. i've always felt different i would sit in class and day dream about everything. i use to be very timid & self conscious. i guess by the time i was 16 i stopped caring about the way people saw me. i remember one conversation with my mom, i think i was in 8th grade and i was upset because i kept getting criticized about everything and i was on the verge of tears when my mom said "you know what you say to people who pick at everything you do...FUCK EM'....fuck what they have to say" lol i was so shocked b.cuz i mean my mom didn't swear i never heard her talk like that. mom's is a beast lol!!! till this day i still have that fuck em' attitude....can't change who i am. don't really want to. now i'm to stuck in my ways.that could be a bad thing. unfortunately i know no other way.

"you are so weird"
"crazy"
"what the Fuck is wrong with you"
"your outta control"
"weirdo"
"i wonder about you sometimes"

just a few of the things i hear almost on a daily basis. at times i wish i could see myself through someone else eyes. not even for a long time. gimmie 10 minutes . that's all i need. i'm ready to travel i honestly don't want to get a job establish a home and all that kinda of stuff. i really just want to drift. travel the world.be in a purple haze.never worried about money or health. just enjoying life care free and lifted!!! oh how i wish that dream would become a reality.

Friday, January 2, 2009

isn't it obvious i have no life

it be me me me & Timothy!!! i just woke up about 2 hours ago & i've been on the computer since. in the next 5 years where will i be? i know where i wanna be...writing for a magazine not even a editor i wanna take it slow learn my craft and master it.but it doesn't stop there i want to host and direct my own radio show...where we can talk about any and everything i want to hand pick my co-host cuz we gotta have a connection!!! the sky's my limit i think it's possible i'm GOING 4 IT!!!

next on the agenda F.R.I.E.N.D.S howmanyofushavethem. it's funny how people change in such i short period of time. i don't hold any grudges i still love everyone as if nothings changed but it's easy to let some of my old friends go simply b.cuz the were unsatisfied with their own life's so they decided to take it out on me, someone who had no control of their life. just an inncocent by stander. Bye Bye Birdy i pray that you find what your looking for before it's to late. can't change who i'm iz. don't really want to. as you view my pictures these a

re the ones who get me they Xcept me for me and i Xcept them for them. though some have only been in this love affair for a short while i like what i see...the ones i can depend on. as for the ones that have been down since the playground the love affair continues you know who you iz no need to name names. That's what pictures are for!!! No matter how far away we are from each other or the time period since we last talked nothing ever changes MY DEFINITION OF A TRUE FRIEND!!!

bah bah black sheep have you any wool? yes sir yes sir 3 bags full!!!

HighSchool I was a fool I was only 18

i live life as a dreamer...my attitude ((la lala lala im fun im cute good times))

until reality slapped me in the face...& she slapped me HARD!!!

2 events corresponding to each other f#!&$$ up my mindstate at one point i didn't even know who i was anymore i was LOST & the only person who could find me was ME

the only way i could xscape reality was if i went to sleep & even then I WOULD DREAM EVERY SINGLE NIGHT i just couldn't xscape my thoughts they were my own worst enemy.

i guess i kept some of my sanity b.cuz i still had fun & enjoyed myself....but when we got in one of my moods i was gone...it took me a LONG time to get back to where i wanted to be it ju st took time for me to appreciate me again. iLove myself fucking right iDo. i highly & advise you to Love yourself as well it's incredible if i must say so. Looking back i don't regret going through the B.S it taught me many vauble Leasons on LIFE...she can be your bestfriend or your worst enemy THE CHOICE IS YOUR!!! so when it comes to mines iLike it iLove iWant some more of it!!!

LETS TAKE A TRIP DOWN THE LANE SHALL WE...

High school was fun and memorable charpter in my life which is now closed Life's a journey & i've only just begun mines i xcept my past & im xcited about my future....Here iGO!

Come on everybody get out of your seat...