couldn't think of a title just thought i'd let u know

always been under estimated. but i think i was the main one under estimating myself. i think i've always been afraid of the power i had afraid that i wouldn't know how to control it when i learned how to use it. i still think i'm afraid. don't know why tho. i've always felt different i would sit in class and day dream about everything. i use to be very timid & self conscious. i guess by the time i was 16 i stopped caring about the way people saw me. i remember one conversation with my mom, i think i was in 8th grade and i was upset because i kept getting criticized about everything and i was on the verge of tears when my mom said "you know what you say to people who pick at everything you do...FUCK EM'....fuck what they have to say" lol i was so shocked b.cuz i mean my mom didn't swear i never heard her talk like that. mom's is a beast lol!!! till this day i still have that fuck em' attitude....can't change who i am. don't really want to. now i'm to stuck in my ways.that could be a bad thing. unfortunately i know no other way.

• "you are so weird"
• "crazy"
• "what the Fuck is wrong with you"
• "your outta control"
• "weirdo"
• "i wonder about you sometimes"

just a few of the things i hear almost on a daily basis. at times i wish i could see myself through someone else eyes. not even for a long time. gimmie 10 minutes . that's all i need. i'm ready to travel i honestly don't want to get a job establish a home and all that kinda of stuff. i really just want to drift. travel the world.be in a purple haze.never worried about money or health. just enjoying life care free and lifted!!! oh how i wish that dream would become a reality.